I'm home alone with just my sister..

Got a chalet today yeah but my sister has a show tomorrow so she can't stay home alone so i'm here....I can't swim..should i use a tampon???see how lar...Well picked my baby up just now..We will just put all this fuck things behind us for now..When i'm more sane i'll bring it up kzzzz dun worry baby i won't forget..

Hmmm well today was fairly fine ...But still i'm not fine.My brains still thinking..am i the right one for him?is he right for me?why do i love him?what makes him love me?do i trust him?does he trust me?am i taking advantage of him?or is he taking advantage of me??

wow and so many more question yes even after 7 months.Baby i do love you but don't take things for granted and don't push it my dear boy...

I know i've done my part and i know i'm not the type who cheat cause i don't wanna live with that guilt.I know wadever happens,it happens for a reason.either it strengthens our bond or its just not meant to be.So i'm just taking everything bit by bit.

This is what i'm just wondering but between us baby everythings fine.But not yet to perfection.I will do my part to make you happy but don't push your luck cause i may not take it anymore..

Love you all the same...No harm done just wondering..right?

Yeah i'm happy that at least 3 people that i support make it thru..I didn't want norman to go through but damn lah who cares,in the end also still BYE-BYE!

currently i'm so fucking irritated but the day went well ..Met up with Jamie we went cycling and met bec for awhile to get something..Going out with Jamie again was super fun,we could just talk and talk and talk and talk and we can't end....Bitch here bitch there...Fuck it it was fun.talk about everything under the sun!woootz***

o.k than came home and layan this damn cat thats making engraving all over my hand!long and short lines...

Damn irritated with my fucking mum and sister..that means i'm fucking annoyed with everyone.Furthermore when i'm having my fucking period...Wow thats something isn't it..

Feel like just bloody screaming at everyone around so damn fucking irritating la....wahliao!

I'm gonna continue with my book now chaowz..*

Oh my god why do Singapore bother with Singapore Idol again??

They wanna sing songs by Beyonce,Jamie cullum,Nat king cole,Kelly Clarkson and they don't do justice for the song.The original singer should go sue them.They should learn how to open their mouth and sing for gods sakes it's not a KTV!Learn from choir man,i was from their once so it helps loads....
I'm so far just rooting for Mathilda,Jay,siew woon and Gayle..Mathilda cause she can sing despite the cramped face...Jay for being soft but sounding very man,Siew woon has the voice but no face and Gayle who is 50/50...

so yeah here's a sneak preview of that pussy in my house..





she is small..Like people say u look slightly bigger in camera.So that explains it..I miss having cats in the house.There was one cat called sky it died,one cat called rusty and the other tootee ran away,Rainy a persian got fucking stolen and yes i have a line of cats history.So this cat is now called Sophie and i have no idea why..hahaha

So i'm now reading a book tittled Mr maybe by Jane Green cause its hilarious and a MUST read..You can seriously laugh out loud.

I was watching Oprah Winfrey about picking out the right jeans and it sure comes in handy..I suddenly love listening to the corrs..The music is so Irish ...so haunting..runaway,no frontier and especially their instrumental u should go hear it..You know the cd Rasuk and mahaguru by Dzul Rabul Jalil is instrumental and very indonesian.I LIKE! also very haunting.You know those hair standing type of music.I really enjoy it and the boyfriend dosent fine it quite of a turn on,but who cares about wad he tinks rite.I'm just appreciating the Javanese blood in me.

The best part was,the last time i was at my grandma house.She told us that on her side,we are the descendant of Majapahit.OoOoOo isn't that cool.Cause even in the Javanese race itself theirs many different categories.Like for example in the race chinese itself their is hokien and cantonese..Well Puteri Gunung Ledang sister who is called Puteri Gunung Banang is from Batu Pahat,Johor and that is where my grandama was born and all the other descendant shit.....KWANG KWANG KWANG! believe it or not??? hahaha nice to believe but u people must be making all that funny faces,rolling of eyes,green of faces,puking blood... who cares..

Just came back from Laselle,just did my instant student card..soo cool..

So actually met Lillian yesterday and that woman had a friend wanted to get rid of a cat and now its with me.Yes i adopted that noti kitty..It's still young so she is so active.She likes fury and moving stuff.I bathed her yesterday too and now she is playing with this vibrating mouse.Hope it dosen't turn her on.

Love my new skin cause everytime i see her i wanna smoke.MY VICEROY MENTHOL LITES!baby where are you?

I miss my shaiful.yes i'm o.k already.The wind passed by and took all my bad feelings away..It's a new day and i wanna start a new so,no more ugly feelings.

Bloody cat just bit my cheek.CEKIK DARAH!ahhhhhh asshole....my boyfriend had to go to cck polyclinic today heeheee to take out his wisdom tooth.so funny,it just tickles me pink to think about it..sorry baby!

man just kill ur romantic mood everytime...

Ya i love you baby,but ur such a spoiler.FUCK I NEED A PACK OF CIGGIES!ya i didn't touch a stick in a day ya so..don't stress me baby.

I don't look forward too talking to him every weekday nite anymore,cause his always too tired and he talks to me like talking to his damn officer.ya i understand but don't push me to talk for heavans sakes.what the hell u want me to talk about?every detail of my period?

Just sick man...Bloody mood spoiler.Bloody in.....fine,i'm indian too..Don't expect anything from me for gods sake.i feel not good enough.God i hope u find some better girl...BUT i tink no,i treated u like a prince if thats not enuf u need a slave.

Just because ur in fucking ns dosent mean u got to well up in self-pity.For gods sake and hang suspicion on every word i speak.You want me to prove you right by having another guy and make it normal like all the girls who cheat on their guys in ns...What the hell u want from me?Is not having a scandal bloody abnormal to a girl who has a guy in ns?

Baby i can't wait for friday to slap you..obviously it will be jokingly but boy do i mean it..

What is it with the childish boys who thinks between the legs and than expect their egos to be fed?Sick bitch.Baby i've been best to you than anyone before if you can't appreciate it than fuck it.JUST WALK AWAY,i won't look in any other direction.I miss being single.so i dun mind,but baby better start courting me before my heart goes down to my stomach..

Give me a break and just leave me alone!i'll feel better later but i just got to let of some steam.
Baby i'll warn u again,don't push the wrong nerve baby.

HELL HATH NO FURY LIKE A WOMENS SCORN!(no phrase could be any better than this,don't you tink ladies)

SOOOO EWWWWWWWW

EWWWWW wad the hell was she thinking?

Julia Roberts caused a stir on Broadway recently, by greeting fans while wearing a seven-year-old dress. Julia last wore the red sequinned garment to the London premiere of Notting Hill, in 1999, where she shocked onlookers by revealing her hairy armpits as she waved to the crowd.

...i miss my mon cheri...

o.k wads new...well just finished a book by Nora Roberts tittled Sweet revenge..I like her books.which girl isn't a sucker for romance novel?maybe not u..but me a super sucker for it.

Well a romance with revenge as a plot.Who could resist the way they describe the hero and than the lady who steals his heart.i envy her.I just love books,it's amazing how reading could bring you to another world.Reading love stories is the only companion,now that my love is in NS.

him being in NS has given me a chance to think of this whole relationship in a whole new different level.I know myself well enough to know i can live without a man in my life.But One thing for sure i love him.Loving a person does not make a relationship grow,i know.So what does?

Love and relationship is so complicated compared to all the love stories you read.All the false hope,and the mushy feeling inside....

je taime mon cheri*

OH MY GOD!

Silent hills suck !pleases do not waste ur money..even pirated vcd's of that show is not worth it.If you sickos like resident evil than maybe u would like this stupid show...

Damn should have watched scary movie 4 instead..

Regrets!

well its so shitty!ouh nevermind wads done is done wad to do wad to do wad to do...

My dearest friend,Aruna tagged me for this and well, here it goes.


7 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME
1. I don't care how i look as long as i'm comfortable.
2. I love swimming..
3. I feel fat no matter what you say.
4. I'm a dumpee not a dumper.
5. I love all ANIMALS..i dun care wad..i play with spiders,dogs,ants,millipedes anything u name it.
6. I really do not give a shit what you think about me unless u mean something to me.
7. I'm a happy girl....


7 THINGS THAT SCARES ME
1. Crazy violent old people.
2. My handphone getting lost or stolen.
3. My wallet getting lost or stolen.
4. Clowns.
5. Death and Hell
6. Losing loved ones.
7. My slipper giving way in public.


7 RANDOM MUSIC AT THE MOMENT
1. How could an angel break my heart? by Toni Braxton
2. Buttons by Pussycat Dolls
3. Hard to say i'm sorry by Chicago
4. La Tortura by Shakira
5. Sorry by Madonna
6. Queen of Hollywood by The Corrs
7. Killing me sftly by Lauren Hill


7 THINGS I SAY THE MOST
1. Am i fat?(for fun)
2. huh?
3. what?!?
4. What the hell?
6. Idiot(thanks to aruna)
7.Bloody Hell


7 PEOPLE TO DO THIS
1. Bored people.
2. Nothing better to do people.
3. People who like answering questions.
4. Anyone for cheap entertainment.
5. Anyone who reads this.
6. Humans.
7. People who likes number 7.

TICKLE ME!!

Roses are red, Violets are blue
Monkeys like u should be kept in zoo.
Don't feel so angry you will find me there too
Not in cage but laughing at you.


Twinkle Twinkle little star
You should know what you are
And once you know what you are
Mental hospital is not so far.


The rain makes all things beautiful.
The grass and flowers too.
If rain makes all things beautiful
Why doesn't it rain on you?


I wrote your name on sand it got washed.
I wrote your name in air,it was blown away.then ~
I wrote your name on my heart & i got Heart Attack


God saw me hungry, HE created pizza .
HE saw me thirsty, HE created Pepsi
HE saw me in dark, HE created light
HE saw me without problems, HE created YOU.


When ur life is in darkness pray to God
ask him to free u from darkness
and if after you pray and you're still in darkness,
please pay your ELECTRICITY BILL!

Jung Ideal vs. Real Test Introversion 50% 30% Extroversion 60% 66% Intuitive 60% 50% Sensing 56% 46% Feeling 56% 50% Thinking 66% 43% Judging 56% 40% Perceiving 43% 63% ideal you real you ideal type - ENTJ, real type - ENFP

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type :behavior

I:quiet, private, few friends
E:outgoing, expressive, many friends
N:random, mysterious, non linear
S: sequential, factual, practical
F:emotional, passionate, selfless
T: willful, stoic, self reliant
J:planned, regimented, orderly
P: spontaneous, playful, fun

it's a hideous sunday .....................


dun make me hate you baby......
i can do it at a snap of a finger.....
don't step on my wrong nerve....
i'm not an ego feeder....
i'm not for ur back and call....
i'm can be a bitch at this ....


just don't push it to far....
don't act like you know me all your life....
you don't....
what u need is a pet....
i'm not your doormat....
if ur asking for a fight,thats what i will give u with pleasure...


but baby dun u regret....
i may break ur heart....
if ur lucky i may break ur face....
i will break ur soul....
with nothing but my tongue....


just don't push it to far....
baby u wanna see a bitch....
i'll give u a bitch....
by then,dun think u can stop me....
cause i won't....
a great big fight i'll give that u won't ever forget....


i'll make history in ur past....
i'll make shit in ur present....
i'll give u hell in ur future....
and believe me i will....
just don't push it....

I'm so lonely hee hee...

sobz* my man officialy in NS....

i hope he eats and be a hunk hahahahaa.....damn i wanna go swimming see how...
wanna play pool too...

darn...wanna smoke chaowz*

fact or fiction

Main Type	Overall Self

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Enneagram Test Results Type 1 Perfectionism 46% Type 2 Helpfulness 62% Type 3 Image Focus 62% Type 4 Hypersensitivity 54% Type 5 Detachment 50% Type 6 Anxiety 42% Type 7 Adventurousness 66% Type 8 Aggressiveness 66% Type 9 Calmness 58% Your main type is 8 Your variant is sexual

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oh dear i need SCHOOL...

baby going ns in days..die die nvrmind ,no damn choice....

ok so going out with my darling everyday n yeah it's been great but sooo sad...wad to do wad to do..

miss meee???

well so went to soraya house the other day with aruna yogendiran....played scrabble...

well it was alright,but my hearts with that waffles man..so damn hell cute.hahahaha super tiny,but great cute puppy...

countdown begins with my baby going ns...

and i may not be in singapore on saturdays..my aunty and mum opening a "tution centre" teaching english to the children in kampung.i would love to help its my dream.so yes i'll be teaching,and it dosen't matter if your english is good or bad cause wadeva their age it's back to nursery for them..

glad i could make a difference..

hmmmmm my leanaan(sweetheart in gaelic) is out of singapore...

miss him.he will be back next week and than soon after NS...ouch* wad too doo..ok yeah so i've done lazing around and watching vcd and all that shit load..

and a wonderful thing happen,aruna asked me out on monday...yeah yeah yeah....and this past few days had a wonderful conversation with my guy,you know he is so scared to go NS hahahha cause of me...and got to assure him cause his friends scaring him half to death..but dun worry i'm in good hands..can't wait to school and 2 years will pass like the breeze.hope to get the job at pet safari*cross fingers* love to be around all that animals.Miss looking around for cute doggy stuff for robin's ex doggy COOKIE....sobz*

ROBIN DUNCHA MISS COOKIE...

sad day..miss buying my old cat a condo,a water bed,a personal private playground and a pet rat for my cat..they were best buddies..hee hee.....gave birth to 4 little kittens and it died...oh dear sad story....

ooooh but look at soraya's pup..that's one bunddle of joy.so cute i wish i could bite of its head...you know that feeling when you see a real cute baby...they look so yummy...

ouh my uncle went into the hospital a minute ago,don't really know wads wrong yet..something to do with his tummy i guess.......

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!