Saturday, January 28, 2006

FUCK UP FATHER

my father is dead..i don't have a father...

i hope he dies soon...fucking asshole...jerk bastard..if u hurt my mum one more time...you're gonna fucking get it from me...you fucking bastard..leave this family and everyone and this family WOULD BE A FAMILY....damn it you fucking freak just die damn it..i'll fucking party that night..

whick fucking father would be jealous when his daughter jokes with their mother...ISN'T THAT FUCKING SICK.....fuck it i hope he just dies...die on the fucking road!!!fucking asshole!you fucking don't treat us like dirt you son of a bitch!!you don't fucking look down on us fuck it...fuck you....die or divorce and i'll be the most happiest mutthafucker on earth.....

You think ur some fucking good father..you don't even contribute shit in this house...having you as a fucking tittle don't mean anything...IT'S A FUCKING EMBARASSMENT!FUCK IT.DROP DEAD AND JUST FUCKING DIE!YOU SICK PERVERT...I'M NOT A FUCKING GUY I'M NOT A SON...YOU FUCKING LAY A FINGER ON ME I'LL BREAK YOUR FUCKING NECK...DON'T YOU DARE SAY YOU'RE A FATHER AND CAN WHACK ME ANYTIME YOU LIKE FUCK IT...FUCK YOU!

Go live with your widow sister...and screw her and screw you....screw you too and fucking die in each other arms..i don't give a fuck!!!

AHMAD KAMAL YOU'RE DEAD TO ME!FUCK IT!FUCK YOU ASSSHOLE!

Friday, January 27, 2006

HARSH

accompanied bec get something from down town....and before that played pool and afterwards the tutions for the brats....

THANK YOU ARUNA!!!!LOVE YOU!HAD EXTREMELY LOVELY TIME WITH YOU BUNNY!!
your grandma all groovy and your brother is one hot stuff...damn why can't he grow any faster...do u think he would be interested with a lady 4 years his senior!.....

WAIT I'M JUST KIDDING!

wad goes around comes around.....serve you right swine!hahahah in your face..

Thursday, January 26, 2006

tummy ache!

my tummy hurts!my baby is moody cause his sick.....hmmmmmmmm

nevermind!supposedly going out with aruna today but she aint confirming with me!

BITCH i can't stand you why the hell can't you keep your freaking comments to yourself..my boyfriend is non of your business so you should keep your tramp mouth shut!i'm going to give a huge scratch across that face you think of so preety!well hope you and your boyfreiend drop dead and fight till you die...but what goes around comes around....

Well lives been chill.....Anything seem to go....i don't care anymore,i'm just living cause i have too...o.k happy but can't be bothered really!honestly! Becky i miss you !god i want the fucking holidays back from scratch....sick shit..

you know something.....I LOVE SNEEZING!it's a great feeling you feel all refreshed after that....
Pool was great i won every single game except for 1 which that stupid ball number 8 went in...Well either i was damn good or nigel just suck to the core...hahahhah fun lah...Than went to have lunch at good old B.K....tahn he went off to training so i met up with lillian and we went to some job shit so bloody bored but the guys seem to keep starring and smilling like they were from the jungle for 50 years or something...kzz but sociable and friendly so no problem!Than left her and met my love!who was sick and insisted on meeting.....hmmmmm well well what can i say!!!loving each other more everyday...

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

hmmmmm

WHave u ever tried being someone ur not....how about someone close to u.......extremely annoying i must say....well it happens to be one of my friends.....It's the holidays but u still can see all these annoying behaviour that u never know existed....

Give me a break u stupid girl.....carrot cake!now going play pool with nigel...my love in school..and job interview later too late but part time who the hell cares!

Monday, January 23, 2006

A new day.....

Well woke up this morning feeling all tingly.........

Partly my baby got a new phone after loosing his....Well well it's a new day!just read my daily horoscope thingy and it looks bad...and anyway i read for the fun of it.....do you believe in horoscopes?interesting eh..don't ya think!

Lillians pestering me to go work with her it's not a bad paid job but maybe i'm just god damned lazy..aruna damn wish i could have met ya yesterday with bush and jamie we missed ya,ya know...but it seems like you're more on your own now,you've changed eh....Well yesterdays class gathering wasn't superb but it wasn't that bad either...i(like always) making all the god damn noise...but u got to self-entertain when everyones boring you down...i don't want anyone spoiling my 4 precious hour....and got the food their was some mee thingy that wasn't bad at all cooked up by val mummy and satay and black pepper thingy with epok-epok and all that...but half the time talking cock with the girls in the air-con room above all that smoke....BUT THE MARSHMALLOW WAS SINFUL....but i still do love chocolate...and you know in tamp mall the little chocolate shop have marshmallow dipped in chocolate....*now thats what i call paradise*

yeah and my baby met my aunty uncle grandma and 3 of my cousins......my havoc aunty made him welcome cause maybe she is very open and great fun...we smoke together and i'm tutioning her little brats so ya...i slept over on that friday night.....she did me a facial.....great cool woman...and so my little baby lovess adoress small little brats so he kept them bloody entertained...

i'd like to be a mum one day..i like small children but some kids just give you the impression that all children will come like pest....is it because of parents?that's something to explore...and last night i was just talking about it with my sister...and just wondering of the wonders giving birth..breast feeding....wierd right..and how god should give us part time babies instead....hahahahahah k just kidding!

Saturday, January 14, 2006

A new day.....

Hell i really dunno wad to say in a fucking blog...i can write 4 fucking pages in my diary but zilt down here...like so freakin stoopid sia.....fuck!!!!

god aruna blog getting all political......it's quite not my cup of tea!so never mind...

11/01/2005>mind the langguage and broken english!<

Feeling all squishy today..Today hari raya haji,but play the bloody laptop whole damn day..feeling restless and all..had to wait 4 hours for my babe to finish his medical check up that day...lucky i brougth my book..father was release from the hospital the same day!It's a good day today but raining shit and missing my baby like hell.And disappointed can meet tomorrow..Than his ex friend smsed him and all that fuck,feeling damn disgusted with all this females that can't keep their vagina's to themselves!I do have my awkward days..Feel like crying.He has to study tomorrow..damn frustrated that day about being lost goin to atiqua and erween house.went to syura chalet..god BORING!FUCK IT!Now my other side distant cousin wants tution too...primary 3 gerl!Aiyoi!

Got to save up for my darlings birthday got to spoil him good!gonna be second month soon...I need him,I want him.could u cry from wanting a person so much?I've become an emotional shit freak after emmanuel!but it was 9 months but felt like 9 weeks.enjoyed but to what extend if a guy treats u like shit..fuck him for wasting my precious 2005.But i aint shedding a tear drop cause his not worth it..Truth hurts,but i'd pity any female within his grasp!YOU GOT TO FEED HIS FUCKING EGO AND PRIDE!WELL HIS GOT TO LEARN TO SHOVE IT UP HIS ASS AND PUT A CAN OF BEER AS THE STOPPER!thats what i call a bitch.his a real go damn slut!

FAT HOPE I'D EVEN GIVE HIM FRIENDSHIP!WITH HIM?!?!?!OVER MY DEAD CORPSE!well like christina aguilera would say be a FIGHTER!yeah she is my type of woman!and for your info i'm not that type of woman who would die without a man in her life!ITS JUST THAT ALL THOSE attention and pampering is hard to resist..Besides i do love my boo now so no problem no need to be single!but it's better than those who wait so damn long and end up faling flat on the face and rejected....time wasted...heartaches for no reason..been through it and it sucks to the core!

Shaiful happens to be mr perfect to me...all that i ever wanted,needed and more..a gentleman,caring,loving and patience of an angel to have me and putting up with me.His one in a million...totally different unlike the rest so i'm kinda taking this relationship slow cause it's TOTALLY DIFFERENT..trust me!And i knew him for 5 years and we didn't know it wud end up like this and furthermore no waiting.saw him 2005 hari raya going out with the seashell boys and god he was so adorable and honestly i always did have a crush on him and POOF*the rest is history!!!!cool huh*

love:nadiah

Thursday, January 12, 2006

father

MY FATHER IS A BITCH!

Monday, January 09, 2006

wad a day!

Hello again....a day half-spent at CMPB sial thanks to my love going to NS he go medical check-up.....hmmm old man!scared of my results............................"o"level!

rainy day agian..so damn cold and my aunty game me 2 sweaters one green one white...the white so sexy!!ooooh plunging neck line...but i've got the boobies so...Have it flaunt it right...whats the big deal!better than flat chested runways!!!HAHAHAHA

Father had an operation yesterday..his back today all sickly..the sad thing is i feel like i don't give a peice of shit....traggic isn't it......but his ok still making noise as usual!

so yeah wad a day but lucky i brought a book and mp3..long way out at tiong bahru....!

Saturday, January 07, 2006

Tired sia!

Went to a chalet today and damn laughed a lot this few pass fucking days.....

Tution with my cousin spread to the other side of the family and i maybe hired in Ang mo kio and woodlands now..teaching damn so easy especially having the satisfaction of them understanding.......i think i'll get them a treat if they are nice...

YEAH!

Friday, January 06, 2006

LoVeFoOl

I'm back second time for the day and well its midnight...My baby is asleep,the rain pouring.....well my freaky ex e-mailed me...and another ex sms me at 2a.m last night and another sms to get to know me....no life idiots so i told them i was engaged and getting married next sunday and that maybe they had a wrong number to begin with....It's so fun..

got back home at 10+ from woodlands...Well taught my little cousin at an RC and the opposite corner all those mats and minahs making unitelligent remarks that irritates me...damn it..can't they go home and wash dishes or something...well wrote 3 testimonials for people today...
my dear babes accompanied me patiently while i tution one...and than another brat came along after afternoon session in school and so my babes entertained him..well so my dear boy have met my parents,sister and 4 cousins...interesting they liked him ...who wouldnt..nice guy!loving him everyday...

i need a bum massage all these long rides on busses makes me sick..can't wait to get my own motorbike...!

Rainy days!

I'ts been rainy...U know carpenters song rainy days and mondays always makes me down.......hahahhahah yesterday went to play pool yes it was a tie.....I'm getting better by the minute...today tutioning my little cousins all the way in Woodlands...damn...3 busses..Butt soars.....Finally aruna updated her blog....

so i have 30 minutes to get ready but my sister inside so.....got to wait...well ok so still haven started on portfolio....well saw sue en the day before yesterday and she is in NAPFA...she wants to be an art teacher...old dream but i want to go into advertising...it's just so freaing fun very open...and any ideas could clash and it would still be nice......

Well i'm damn hungry so i shall retreat to the kitchen...and have branch.....toodles

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

Stay home day!

Well no one ask me out...i'm bored and contented at home.....well my love studying today his got his CA thursday !well my boredom was quench when my dear finish early from school and we went swimming yea yea!WOOOOOPEEEEEE!

fun man bloody hell...than we grab something to eat and he sent me home....sobz*miss him already.......

Why aruna never update her blog.....Entertain me people...i'm so easily bored damn it!hahhahaha Feel like playing pool but with who man?!?!?!haiz nevermind....

Another day of self entertainment......

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

OOOOOW i'm bloody bored

Waiting for my sweet pea to finish school....
well have been painting and sketching out of boredom....been reading a book called faith and lies by a local author....god that book is all crappy load of stoolz......it consist of short stories with freaking remix..like adam and eve,pandora box,how Singapura's lion was supposedly a baboon and houdini and how he cheats while dramaticly kissing his wife the key to his locks is passed through her mouth.....It's no that bad but you would tend to skip stories...

Damn how the hell do you make your ass big????ANYBODY HELP!

hahahah ok at least i have a lump down there so i'm alright...HAHAHA well maybe i'm talking shit cause i'm bored...So this is my only way of self-entertainment and this shows on tv are christmas shows...Haiz and well yestersday stayed at home whole day yesterday and tormented at home by boredom.

was reading through soraya's blog about spanking/beating , sexual desires and something like that......HMMM well i don't think parents should beat their children like theirs no tomorrow at a tender age.....Oh please my freakin father whacked the daylights out of me with belt,hanggar,punching cowboy style,umbrella and about anything his eyes lay on...Wait not forgetting almost cracking my sisiters head with a chopper and i had to bloody hold his hand when my mum was to shocked to do anything......I deffinitely grow hating him to the core...Even planning to throw a few stones in his motorcycle exhaust pipe and hope it blows up...But to think about my mum....I just have to hold my breadth and grow through this shit...

Well in some ways it taught me loads,i became who i was and to realise at the end of the day it's my life and his gonna die anyway so that m*fruiter can just F off from my life.....

OK enough of all this negative shit and hatred........

Going swimming on Thursday with my baby king kong..well they say hairy man are romantic.....
If women were the same no one would be shaving right.....
hahaha sick nadiah sick!

Do you talk to yourself?isn't it fun!Aruna darling i miss you....damn i just realise something becky in school hahahaahaha and i'm at home bored.....i want to go back to school and flirt with the younger boys....*Ya RIGHT*

I miss Christmas and all those Hari raya occasion...Well year 2006 Hari raya is my birthday cool ya.....Well and the previous ? years it was on deepavali....Christmas was great got a Bear from my baby and lavender sticks and cones from bec,hangbao from grandma,giordano shirt from stcey and aroma threaphy thingy from aunty Jeya.....cool Like Macdonald's would say....I'm lovin it.....

Monday, January 02, 2006

First entry!

Well its been an o.k year for 2005.....
Had a fucking rough break-up with emmanuel and than their were "o"levels...and not forgetting freinds and classmates who bitch about you...
Well now after "o"levels and the long holiday you're just glad to know who are your true friends and now i found a guy who is absolutely a dream come true....
I'll just skip the freaky details when i was in school,but during the holidays spent loads of time at beckys place and painting her house,shaiful and me got together on the 19th of December after 4 years of friendship....

I would say after that filthy school i had fun,knowing myself,searching myself and definitely less bitching!

Christmas was a ball off a time at bec house...but on the 27th went to bec house and had to go home early ..fish..well some girls tend to have nothing to say and just had to mutter something unintelligent.well loads of girl seem to make me and my love fight but who cares we absolutely happy with any source of entertainment.....

I'm damn sure that most girls go through this..so as long as we trust and love each other all would be fine....

New year was fun too,my aunt and cousins sleep over and i thought my younger cousin algebra and it feels damn good when u teach and a person understand....her younger brother was an acorn between ur butt crack though....god what a prick that boy was...

Missing some of my girls though.....hahaha their is Aruna,jamie,lillian and kabilan....wierd as it may seem but kabilan was the only honey at the end of that secondary school days.....Don't miss becky cause i see her almost 3 times a week......

New year resolution......
~save cash
~spoil my boo
~going out with my girls
~jogging with jamie
~quit puffing
~spent more time at home
~find a good school
~start on my portfolio
~shedding kilograms
and more actually......